Bottles, bottles........

Bottle, bottle you make me beg, will you bring me a little egg.

Here it is folks. Two little bottles that could turn to three.


Am I ready for this? The up and down and crying and disappointment that comes with it all. I don't know. I know this much, no egg for 3 mths now so body is back to 'normal' polycystic behavior. "Normal" being that I only ovulate 3-4 times a year.

UGH! This is so frustrating, why can't I just get pregnant like everyone else I know! Have sex and within three months, your pregnant! Do people even realize how infuriating that is to me? Not infuriated at them but at my own body that doesn't work!

I'm torn between glee and distaste for the bottles, ovulation sticks, blood draws, thermometer that we hang our hopes on every month. Torn when friends say, "It'll happen faster this time," like they are voyeurs into my reproductive future.

The brighter side, Rich is REALLY on board this time. Not that he wasn't last time, but with 20 hrs a week of graduate school things were a little overwhelming. We are in such a better place emotionally as a couple to handle this WELL worn path that has seen us before.

Rich says there are still days when he's amazed that Nora's down the hall. I watch them and know that our family is not complete yet and Rich couldn't adore Nora more. She is truely the apple of his eye and his sunshine when he's had a bad day at work.

Oh, how I want to give Rich more sunshine.

Get OVER it!

Lord, give me patience with people I do NOT understand!

Rich and I have a dear friend that has seemingly written us of for a stupid, childish reason.

(Side note: she DOES NOT read this blog or even know about it.)

I've been friends with this lady for almost 8 yrs now and have been witness or the ear that listens to many of her eccentric ideas about how people should treat her. I truely believe we should all have a standard to which we hold friends so that I have always agreed with.

Rewind to Rich's bday back in January, she forgot, we had to postpone birthday dinner about 4 times due to crazy schedule changes and illness. The three of us finally did dinner in mid-March.

Fastforward, Amanda goes to TX for 10 days, Amanda gets back to a NUTS work schedule because it's spring and that pesky landscape designer thing comes into play, Easter happenings, family moving happenings, renovation happenings....and Opps!

We forgot her birthday the beginning of April. Considering everything that was going on I was lucky to remember it 10 days AFTER the fact.

I immediately emailed an apology, problem being you just never know when she's got a computer down. Technology just doesn't like her in the least and her computer constantly has what she calls 'scary messeges' for which Rich gets called at all hours of the day.

Three days pass and I call her phone to see if I can talk to her...NOTHING. The situation is not helped that her cellphone is not set up to take messages....see above about techonology issues.

I am at a loss, I truely didn't forget or ignore her on purpose, I'm JUST human and made a mistake.

In eight years, I've seen her do this to other friends. Her fuming about some slight she thinks has occurred and how she's 'showing them' by not communicating for a month. Seriously! Seriously, I've always thought the behavior was childish and well below her. So she continues to shun us.....

I anticipate a 'scolding' whenever she choses to communicate since we three have adopted each other as family....

and I pray for the patience to be nice when she finally calls and not stick my foot in my mouth.

Closer and closer!

Getting ever so much closer to renovations being complete on the house. After 5 yrs, we'd love to have it all finished and are getting envious of our friends that bought new! Here's the quick update on the Spring '09 projects.....

The kitchen backsplash. I can not believe how much this changed the look of our kitchen and the BRIGHTNESS it brought to the space. If we EVER do a kitchen renovation again we are getting it done ALL at one time! No more, scrap the wallpaper, paint the walls 3 time(I couldn't decide on a color!), scrap the linoleum, tile the floor.......you get the picture



Fence to contain the munchkin! Nora LOVES her new back yard and the freedom it gives her. Mommy also like the freedom as I can start dinner while Nora plays in her sandbox on the back patio!

The Randomness of Life

This post is just going to be a scattering of happenings in our lives. Each of these may become an expanded post once my life returns to sanity...this should happen sometime the end of May.

* Easter was great! Nora hunted eggs for the first time this year. Of course the hunting ended once she discovered the M&M's inside the plastic eggs. Lesson learned on that one!

* We are getting tile on our kitchen backsplash tomorrow, HOORAY! After 5 years I will finally get rid of nasty laminate and our kitchen will be finished.

* We are fencing in our little roamer! No longer will Nora be able to run to the street and scare us to death! The fence was a GREAT invention!

* I got my progesterone prescriptions written a week ago at the Dr. The fertility war is ON for 2009! Three months of drugs to see if my body will decided to ovulate on it's own. If not, I would assume stronger drugs come next fall. Fingers crossed, the stronger drugs have health risks involved.

* The Jennens (Dave, Jen, Samantha, Michael) are moving to Florida tomorrow after being here for 3 yrs. We are sad to see family go but excited about their new adventure. Nora will miss the cousins!!!! BUT they are in Tamps which is spitting distance to DisneyWorld, may have to make Nora a super happy little girl with visit sometime soon.

* I traded in 100 books to a used/new bookstore near our house. I now have $100 credit in that store.....too bad that won't go far with my 1 bk/week initiative.

* In weight related news, Rich actually apologized for not saying something about my weightloss!? He had to see the pics on my blog in order to realize exactly HOW much thinner I've gotten....men, right?

* In gym news, I did 2500 stairs today in 45 minutes and that's a record for me so far! So glad I came home and ate Cheetos with Nora.

DONATE your dress!

Random reading led me to this organization but I'm SOOOOOO glad I found it!

My immediate thought was 'Do they take wedding dresses?' Some girls may not want to part with THE dress but I've got all the pictures to tell me about that day. The next thought was " How fantastic it would be if I could GIVE another bride my dress for her special day.

ALAS, they do NOT take wedding dresses.

BUT!

They do take formal dress or bridesmaid dresses that can be worn as such. Come on ladies, how would you like a tax write off for the worn once gown that's hanging in your closet!

Here's the link

http://www.donatemydress.org

Here's the address to mail dresses if you don't have a donation center/drive near you! I'm going to put together a box so if any friends want to add to it just get me the dress!

Becca's Closet, Inc.
151 North Nob Hill Road
Suite 280
Plantation, Florida 33324

A pictures worth....

So this was me on Jan. 23rd.....notice the baby bulge that had returned after a 9lbs gain in Dec...completely embarassed about that!




And this is me April 1st - 12 lbs lighter, 2" off my waist, 2" off hips, 1" off my neck! What a crazy place to lose weight! My back side has definitely lost some of it's 'junk' and wow, there a division between my chest and stomach!