Ok, just have to post this because it's a HUGE thing to me. It is so important for me to focus on non-scale related goals to keep myself motivated about the health behind the weight loss, not the actual weight.
Today, I conquered the Stairmaster machine at the gym! That's right, after 40 minutes on the bike I decided to see how long I could hold my own on the evil machine. I've been very tentative since the cartilage in my left knee is shot from years of tennis. Big deep breath and off I went
I did 86 flights in 30 mins!!!!!
The machine said I did an 'average' of 45 steps per minute, so roughly 1,345. I was dripping sweat off my face by the time I was done. I love that, because it's a sign my workout was intense and doing it's job. The BEST part is that my knee didn't twing at ALL, guess all those miles walk/running on the treadmill finally strengthened my tendons.
Next goal: RPM cycle class
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Friday, February 6, 2009
Winning and Losing
So the road to weightloss has been a tough one! I've lost, gained, lost, gained, lost again in the last 4 mths. I'm still no where close to my goals but have found out some interesting things none the less.
1. I actually don't eat ENOUGH! I started tracking calories on sparkpeople.com back the beginning of January. Ummm, most days I was hitting between 1000 and 1200 calories. Basic starvation mode for my body. Sorry body, been there done that and promised not to do it again! - LOSE
2. I'm not ovulating again. ERRRRR. Stupid PCOS. Going to be having MORE extensive bloodwork in the next couple weeks. This time it's testorerone, estrogen, lipids, glucose, thyroid, and one other thing I can't remember right now. - BIG LOSE
3. I CAN do 5+ hrs of cardio a week! This includes tennis, walking, running, or stairs. - BIG win for me on this one!
4. I feel ok about my body image but not great. Working through a lot of food issues and body image issues creeping up from the past, but I'm processing feelings not burying them. WIN
5. Scale obsession, not a good thing. Really thinking about Rich hiding it from me because I don't think the morning weigh-ins are helping the psyche. - LOSE
6. Doing all of this with real life friends and on-line buddies I think keeps me focused - WIN
I know I'm my worst critic. I also know that I'm doing this for ME, no one else, but I'm having trouble getting over the feeling that people are watching, waiting for this miraculous change. What if it never happens, will they be disappointed. (my husband is not in this # of people)
1. I actually don't eat ENOUGH! I started tracking calories on sparkpeople.com back the beginning of January. Ummm, most days I was hitting between 1000 and 1200 calories. Basic starvation mode for my body. Sorry body, been there done that and promised not to do it again! - LOSE
2. I'm not ovulating again. ERRRRR. Stupid PCOS. Going to be having MORE extensive bloodwork in the next couple weeks. This time it's testorerone, estrogen, lipids, glucose, thyroid, and one other thing I can't remember right now. - BIG LOSE
3. I CAN do 5+ hrs of cardio a week! This includes tennis, walking, running, or stairs. - BIG win for me on this one!
4. I feel ok about my body image but not great. Working through a lot of food issues and body image issues creeping up from the past, but I'm processing feelings not burying them. WIN
5. Scale obsession, not a good thing. Really thinking about Rich hiding it from me because I don't think the morning weigh-ins are helping the psyche. - LOSE
6. Doing all of this with real life friends and on-line buddies I think keeps me focused - WIN
I know I'm my worst critic. I also know that I'm doing this for ME, no one else, but I'm having trouble getting over the feeling that people are watching, waiting for this miraculous change. What if it never happens, will they be disappointed. (my husband is not in this # of people)
Monday, February 2, 2009
Crazy stories from the Past
Rich has often encouraged me to write down all the craziness that was and I assume still is my first set of bosses here in Atlanta.
In May 2001, I interviewed with a little but well-known landscape architecture company in Buckhead. The owners were a husband and wife team that were completely dedicated to their work, no children except dogs(we'll get to that later) and were extremely talented.
I will preface this by saying while I'm FOR herbal remedies in most cases there are some things that should just be left to prescribed medicine.
First 'signs' of complete cookyness....Fellow employee tells me to never take ANY pill she offers me if I'm complaining of an ailment. Praytor, continued to tell me that he couldn't feel his legs for 2 days after she gave him something for a headache! Holy moly people! NEVER went down that road with them.
Being the new employee, they asked me to house sit one weekend for $50 a day...ummm heck yeah! Let the crazies begin! First they lived in a very nice area of town, quaint little cottage decorated to the nines. Here's where the aforementioned dogs come in. We will call them Pokey and Earl. They were a cocker mix type dog, super hyper and needy. This was their diet, Organic turkey, 10 pills, oriental frozen vegetables, and fish oil poured over that. YUCK! Wife/husband believed they were ensuring LONG life for their dogs with this concoction. The pills were things like ginkgo, fish oils, green tea, echinacea, and anything else they decided.
Of course while I was house sitting they said I could eat anything in the house. I guess that included the 50+ jars of preserved herbs, mushrooms, berries that were on the sun porch and 100's of vials of herb oils/essence in the pantry. It was a scene out of a witch doctor's cave! Seriously, 15 types of mushrooms, no labels. I was dating Rich at the time and he was betting those were the smoking type of mushroom.
The presumed smoking probably led them to the 'pet psychic' inquiring about the soul of a previous dog. The dog was still alive but they wanted to make sure he was going to a peaceful place. Pet psychic told them they had to get a portrait painted of the dog by a SPECIFIC artist to insure this. Can anyone say SCAM! They completely bought it! Yep, 10K on an oil painting as doggie soul insurance.
Of course they were also concerned about their own souls but not in that go to church make myself right with God type of way. Let's just say that an employee stumbled upon a journal entry in the MAIN file directory of the computer system. ENLIGHTENING! Bosses thought they were REVERSING the aging process through herbs, yoga, and visualization AND that it was God's will as they were SO needed in the world...One part actually professed to 'feeling my body aging slow and reverse in time'...Because that is so God's plan.
Can't say there was ever a dull moment with those two.
In May 2001, I interviewed with a little but well-known landscape architecture company in Buckhead. The owners were a husband and wife team that were completely dedicated to their work, no children except dogs(we'll get to that later) and were extremely talented.
I will preface this by saying while I'm FOR herbal remedies in most cases there are some things that should just be left to prescribed medicine.
First 'signs' of complete cookyness....Fellow employee tells me to never take ANY pill she offers me if I'm complaining of an ailment. Praytor, continued to tell me that he couldn't feel his legs for 2 days after she gave him something for a headache! Holy moly people! NEVER went down that road with them.
Being the new employee, they asked me to house sit one weekend for $50 a day...ummm heck yeah! Let the crazies begin! First they lived in a very nice area of town, quaint little cottage decorated to the nines. Here's where the aforementioned dogs come in. We will call them Pokey and Earl. They were a cocker mix type dog, super hyper and needy. This was their diet, Organic turkey, 10 pills, oriental frozen vegetables, and fish oil poured over that. YUCK! Wife/husband believed they were ensuring LONG life for their dogs with this concoction. The pills were things like ginkgo, fish oils, green tea, echinacea, and anything else they decided.
Of course while I was house sitting they said I could eat anything in the house. I guess that included the 50+ jars of preserved herbs, mushrooms, berries that were on the sun porch and 100's of vials of herb oils/essence in the pantry. It was a scene out of a witch doctor's cave! Seriously, 15 types of mushrooms, no labels. I was dating Rich at the time and he was betting those were the smoking type of mushroom.
The presumed smoking probably led them to the 'pet psychic' inquiring about the soul of a previous dog. The dog was still alive but they wanted to make sure he was going to a peaceful place. Pet psychic told them they had to get a portrait painted of the dog by a SPECIFIC artist to insure this. Can anyone say SCAM! They completely bought it! Yep, 10K on an oil painting as doggie soul insurance.
Of course they were also concerned about their own souls but not in that go to church make myself right with God type of way. Let's just say that an employee stumbled upon a journal entry in the MAIN file directory of the computer system. ENLIGHTENING! Bosses thought they were REVERSING the aging process through herbs, yoga, and visualization AND that it was God's will as they were SO needed in the world...One part actually professed to 'feeling my body aging slow and reverse in time'...Because that is so God's plan.
Can't say there was ever a dull moment with those two.
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