Bottles, bottles........

Bottle, bottle you make me beg, will you bring me a little egg.

Here it is folks. Two little bottles that could turn to three.


Am I ready for this? The up and down and crying and disappointment that comes with it all. I don't know. I know this much, no egg for 3 mths now so body is back to 'normal' polycystic behavior. "Normal" being that I only ovulate 3-4 times a year.

UGH! This is so frustrating, why can't I just get pregnant like everyone else I know! Have sex and within three months, your pregnant! Do people even realize how infuriating that is to me? Not infuriated at them but at my own body that doesn't work!

I'm torn between glee and distaste for the bottles, ovulation sticks, blood draws, thermometer that we hang our hopes on every month. Torn when friends say, "It'll happen faster this time," like they are voyeurs into my reproductive future.

The brighter side, Rich is REALLY on board this time. Not that he wasn't last time, but with 20 hrs a week of graduate school things were a little overwhelming. We are in such a better place emotionally as a couple to handle this WELL worn path that has seen us before.

Rich says there are still days when he's amazed that Nora's down the hall. I watch them and know that our family is not complete yet and Rich couldn't adore Nora more. She is truely the apple of his eye and his sunshine when he's had a bad day at work.

Oh, how I want to give Rich more sunshine.

Get OVER it!

Lord, give me patience with people I do NOT understand!

Rich and I have a dear friend that has seemingly written us of for a stupid, childish reason.

(Side note: she DOES NOT read this blog or even know about it.)

I've been friends with this lady for almost 8 yrs now and have been witness or the ear that listens to many of her eccentric ideas about how people should treat her. I truely believe we should all have a standard to which we hold friends so that I have always agreed with.

Rewind to Rich's bday back in January, she forgot, we had to postpone birthday dinner about 4 times due to crazy schedule changes and illness. The three of us finally did dinner in mid-March.

Fastforward, Amanda goes to TX for 10 days, Amanda gets back to a NUTS work schedule because it's spring and that pesky landscape designer thing comes into play, Easter happenings, family moving happenings, renovation happenings....and Opps!

We forgot her birthday the beginning of April. Considering everything that was going on I was lucky to remember it 10 days AFTER the fact.

I immediately emailed an apology, problem being you just never know when she's got a computer down. Technology just doesn't like her in the least and her computer constantly has what she calls 'scary messeges' for which Rich gets called at all hours of the day.

Three days pass and I call her phone to see if I can talk to her...NOTHING. The situation is not helped that her cellphone is not set up to take messages....see above about techonology issues.

I am at a loss, I truely didn't forget or ignore her on purpose, I'm JUST human and made a mistake.

In eight years, I've seen her do this to other friends. Her fuming about some slight she thinks has occurred and how she's 'showing them' by not communicating for a month. Seriously! Seriously, I've always thought the behavior was childish and well below her. So she continues to shun us.....

I anticipate a 'scolding' whenever she choses to communicate since we three have adopted each other as family....

and I pray for the patience to be nice when she finally calls and not stick my foot in my mouth.

Closer and closer!

Getting ever so much closer to renovations being complete on the house. After 5 yrs, we'd love to have it all finished and are getting envious of our friends that bought new! Here's the quick update on the Spring '09 projects.....

The kitchen backsplash. I can not believe how much this changed the look of our kitchen and the BRIGHTNESS it brought to the space. If we EVER do a kitchen renovation again we are getting it done ALL at one time! No more, scrap the wallpaper, paint the walls 3 time(I couldn't decide on a color!), scrap the linoleum, tile the floor.......you get the picture



Fence to contain the munchkin! Nora LOVES her new back yard and the freedom it gives her. Mommy also like the freedom as I can start dinner while Nora plays in her sandbox on the back patio!