And the best part...I'm down 14 lbs!

I'm comfort eating lately. Which beats the alternative of not eating, another response my body has to upset or anxiety. Though the meds or anxiety seem to be eating fat cells, I'm about 2 lbs under pre-pregnancy weight right now.

Carbs. I want carbs in large insulin spiking proportions that would horrify any doctor. You name it cake, cookies, muffins, or donuts. (Note: the baking experiment three days ago...the cake is already GONE.)

Is it bad to sneak bites of chocolaty goodness hoping the preschooler doesn't catch you? Catching me would mean sharing...boo!

It doesn't really help either that I find cooking and baking a zen experience for my soul. All those smells and textures just hit the happy sensor in my brain.

Then there was last night.

I looked at Rich and said, 'I am craving BAD food, like cake! This is so frustrating.'

Rich, 'Well, go make a cake.'

Me, ' OHhhhhh. I have cherry cobbler yogurt!''

I go downstairs, open the fridge and stare at my choices....Black Forest Cake or Cherry Cobbler? Cherry Cobbler it is! And wow that's only 100 calories. This is ironic solving my cake craving with cake flavored yogurt. Ehhh, it works.

Did I just do a commercial in my head. Son of a gun, the Yoplait marketing people know what they're doing.

And maybe tomorrow I'll make a real cake.

Quick Notes

This equals a drive by posting as some of my PP sisters would say.

Been thinking. A lot about just leaving the landscape design behind me. Starting over and not looking back. I've woken up the past couple nights just thinking about it. Write ideas in journal, go back to sleep. Does anyone else wish there was some assurance before you took a leap? More than just faith, but a policy you could take out.
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Nora took her craft scissors to her hair today...sigh. It was only a little snip in the under growth but I'm debating a major haircut. The only way to explain why we don't cut our hair...because if you want long hair like Rapunzel you can't cut it.

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Trent fell off the changing table tonight. Landed smack flat on his sister's bathroom stool. Prompting many phone calls to the Nonni, to Rich's sister who has experience with this, and to the Pediatric Urgent Care Nurse line. All votes say if he's acting right, he's ok. The little dude was still laughing, playing and scooterooing before bed. Check! Now, to wake him up again in three hours, play with him convince him to go back to sleep.

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Nora told me, 'mommy I have an owie on my fum(thumb). It's going to worse and worse and bleed and bleed and ruin the whole world.'' Exagerrate much?

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Trent went for his 9 mth checkup on Monday. He's 20lbs 8oz., only up 2 oz. since December. Must be all that scooterooing burning calories. He's short at only 27.75". Half an inch shorter than Nora at this age and he was an inch longer at birth. As Nora says, COME ON buddy! GO GO!...

Cherry Cordial Pound Cake

Another day, another baking experiment!

Cherry Cordial Pound Cake

1 c. butter
2 c. white sugar
2 eggs
1 c. sour cream
1 tsp. almond extract
1 tsp. baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
2 c. white flour
2c. frozen cherries(cut in quarters tossed in 1/4 c. flour)
1/2 c. mini chocolate chips.

Optional - 1/2 c. sliced almonds.

1. Cream butter, sugar and eggs until smooth in mixer.

2. Add in sour cream, almond extract, backing powder and salt....mix for 5 minutes on med.

3. Mix in flour and mini chocolate chips.

4. Toss frozen cherry pieces in 1/4 flour, this keeps it from sinking to the bottom of the pan when it bakes. Fold frozen cherries into dough. Because they are frozen it will make the dough very stiff, that's ok.

5. Put dough in buttered and sugar coated bundt pan, bake at 350 for 1 hr. OR make into muffins and cook for 20 mins.