Come the most fascinating and confusing thoughts. Sometimes it leaves you wondering about the existential world and messages from beyond.
Nora has had a couple of these in recent months. (For my PP sisters, I told you about the first two a while back)
We were driving in the car to preschool and she says, 'Mommy.? I don't want you to die. ok?'
HUH!?
This completely got to my anxiety levels as I believe that kiddos are more open spiritually to the other side. (My older sister asked about a dead relative she had never met in the weeks before she died.) Had to talk to the therapist about this one and how it weaves into my fear of dying while my children are young. I know I'm not in control of my time here, but it's a selfish human wish that I cling to.
We were snuggling one night and Nora says, 'I will miss my room mommy. When, when there's a fire and my pretty pictures go away.'...She was talking about the watercolor mural I did above her bed.
Once again OMG! Having a fire in the house, especially on the childrens end is one of my biggest fears
And now this.....
Sweetpea, did you have a bad dream last night? You yelled in your sleep, mommy came in and held you for a while.
''Yeah, I was far far away mommy. And I yelled help help. You said my name, Nora Paige Willman. I did not want to go. There was a thing, like white and glowy up there.''
The deeply spiritual side of me interprets this as her seeing a glimpse of heaven and maybe an angel speaking to her. I am strangely calmed by this dream of hers. It does not frighten me to think that there are angels watching over my child.
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