Lately, I've been thinking a lot about the scene in Neverending Story when the big rock creature starts talking....''these hands, these hands, used to be so strong.'' He has this confusion about how they could have failed him.
I understand this.
For a couple years now, I've noticed a clumsiness when grabbing things. Either I miss judge a distance and end up knocking things over or I go to put something down my hands seem to let go before I want to. Many, many cups of coffee have been spilled and/or broken in this way. I always credited it with sleep deprivation after having Trent almost two years ago, but that's not such an issue these days.
Then came me being tired every afternoon, no matter how much sleep I get.
After that was the depression and anxiety of last year which came out of no where.
And now, there is a weakness in my legs and arms. I can only describe it as the feeling after a really big workout when muscle fatigue has set in. If I vacuum, my biceps feel it, if I go up the stairs my thighs and calves are aching at the top.
Something is definitely going on. We have multiple sclerosis(MS) on both sides of the family so if I were a betting person that is where I'd place my money.
Oddly, we are calm about this.
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