Say Anything.

Sorry, you all are getting inundated with thoughts right now. I have noticed some blog traffic from new places on my map. Welcome, I promise to try to keep you entertained with the chaos!

Interesting conversations lately. Sorting through the eclectic mess in my brain.

Talking to mom a lot. She gave me this sage story full of wisdom a couple days ago.

''When your dad and I lost, Allison.( I had an older sister that died in an accident) There was a friend that just wouldn't call me. I was very hurt because she was always one of my closest friends growing up. D***** talked her and her response was, 'I just don't know how to deal with the death of a child. I don't know what to say.''.

Mom said she was flabbergasted. SHE was the one dealing with it losing HER child. Sometimes people are afraid to speak.

My moms thoughts on this are SO true. What I'm going through may be making those in real life uncomfortable. You may not know what to say, but saying anything is better than the additional hurt that comes from the silence. If you read this blog, I'm not scolding you for not commenting.

This realization comes from sending out smoke signals to a couple people asking for information or direction and getting no response.

NONE.

I'm trying to wrap my brain around moms advice. And I truly understand it.

What if you say the wrong thing? Well, that could happen. Advice like 'God closes doors to open windows' sounds overly cliche in my head and I'd probably laugh.

What if you are a source of some of the internal struggle I have going on? Trust me, I'll talk to you. If this was the case I wouldn't be talking to my mom. Those pesky repressed childhood traumas and all. Mom and I have discussed so don't be appalled that it's mentioned, you must have a sense of humor to get through some of this.

What happens if you make me cry? As long as you brought tissues we are going to be fine.

Say Anything.