A BAD Mommy Day

There's a myth or a lie about mommyhood....your suppose to like it, no LOVE the job all the time.

Not so, not so at all.

There are the days like yesterday when you turn around and all hell has broken loose and in your adult mind you think 'Can I cuss out a child?'...I'll give you the brief run down.

Nora screams hysterically in her room, for 20 minutes, cussing me as only toddlers can..''mommy is mean, mommy make me sad, I no like it!'' Twenty minutes of girl drama because I what? Oh, I took her favorite purple tshirt sheets off the bed to wash because she peed on them!

''Mommy!, Mommy!!!!?

''Nora please sit come here''...Nora doesn't come...after 3 requests...TIMEOUT!

Got to gym, Kinko's and Moes for a special lunch.

Get home, set up carpet picnic for Nora and me with Beauty and the Beast.

Trent screams at me for almost an hour because he's gotten so tired he can't think about the idea that's he's hungry. So this awful pattern emerges with Trent screaming and me pacing and trying to get Trent to nurse again, which only enraged him more. And finally after he'd been awake for almost 7 hours he conked out.

''Mommy, mommy? Mommy!' - She wants to color, which if fine we do this all the time.

Me unloading the dishwasher...trip over Nora 6 times because she has this uncanny ability to be WHERE I need to go. Every. Single. Time.

Let Nora mix up apple juice. Ahhhh silence. Toddler happiness

Nora says that she wants a shower and I'm inclined since its' been 4 hrs since the gym. I get started, she comes in after being distracted by cartoons and FREAKS because I'm already in the shower....I try to reason, ''Mommy gets the soap out of her hair, then I help you undress''....''NOOOOO mommy you mean you did not wait for me!''

Nora gets in shower and proceeds to do it 'all by herself for the next 10 minutes. Showers are an actual activity around here.

Nora wants to go outside to eat a popsicle, she'll need underwear (there is a whole other post needing to happen about my naked hippy child)She won't go get them. Normally the 'No 'x', meand no 'x'' strategy works on her...not this time...hysterics again.

Ok, popsicles...we are happy again. Sand pile...even more happiness.

''Mommy, mommy? Mommy you listening to me?'' ( I swear I was looking right at her!)

Nora wants to swing, she trips and falls...cry...but we swing for 20 minutes.

She discovers I turned off the tv that had Beauty and the Beast on it...hysterics...

Dinner time, Nora refuses to think that it is, she doesn't like anything I give her.

''Mommy, mommy, you do this George puzzle with me''...In a minute, I have to clean the kitchen...''mommy, mommy you do this George puzzle with me?''....this same pattern happened at least 5 times. Was she not listening, did I stutter?

Going upstairs to give Trent a bath, Nora insists on a bath because the shower wasn't enough earlier in the day...sigh...

Bath time, Nora standing in the tub, walking across/over her brother to the toys..''Please don't do that''....'Why?''...You might smush your brother...'why?' UGH!!!

Out of bath, Nora dancing around, running away from me and pj's....Trent screaming because he's getting tired.

Nora wants milk...ok, no biggie. Insert a SHRIEK when I open the fridge 'That my lunch box!'' ...Yea, I know it's packed for preschool tomorrow...'I don't like it in there!...Nora, it's for tomorrow....But I WANT IT!..Fine! This is the low point in my day, get ready folks..I unpacked it and in frustration threw it on the floor. YEP, I stooped to the level of my almost three year old and had a tantrum.

Less than 5 minutes later, Trent is screaming for bed...try to get him to nurse, it enfuriates him. GREAT, round two of walk the baby for an hour today. Get up from couch quickly. NAIL, I mean nail my kneecap on the corner of the coffee table. Seeing the stars kind of pain. This was probably karma for the lunchbox throwing.

Nora is asking whats wrong between mutters about her lunch box being in the fridge.

Trent finally takes a bottle, get 2 oz. of formula down him, then he's calm enough to think about nursing..

Get him to bed.

Snuggle with Nora reading a book in her bed. Got teary apologizing for not being a very fun mommy today and losing my patience....She told me it was 'ok, to keep practicing'...for the next 18 yrs kid and hopefully we won't have many scarring days like today. She feel asleep in under 5 minutes. I'm sure it was a stressful day for her too.

Talk to Rich, he gets me off the proverbial edge. Thank God he could talk some sanity back into my day and understand the stress I was feeling.

Then I sat down to my computer and found this.

http://www.kellehampton.com/2010/10/fueling-moments.html

How did she know? I read her blog all the time and on my worst day since becoming a mommy of two, she was my fuel at the end of the day...

I plan to fuel myself again tonight as I finally get to snuggle back into the arms of my childrens' father on his return...ahhhh. Maybe the filler won't be so dramatic tomorrow.